Making a life change!

I am embarking on a new journey. I have decided to get healthy...and I really mean it! I've been doing a lot of thinking the past month. It all started when my sister started going to Food Addicts Annonymous classes. She got me thinking, no admitting to myself that yes, I do have a problem. I use food to make me feel better, I use it to help me deal with every day issues, I use food as a crutch...I use food as a drug, I am addicted to food. I have known this for a long time, but coming out and admitting it to someone other than yourself is quite a step. Last week, I shared this with Raj, and we started coming up with a plan to get on track. The next day, I shared it with my Sister, who encouraged me to start FAA. After some thought, and planning/preparing, I am now ready to embark on this new journey. It will be a journey that will last a life time. I need to learn how to use food as it is intended for, for nutrition. I have decided to give up candy/pop/processed food/wheat/sugar/flour for a month. To start this process, I will be starting a 3 day juice fast tomorrow, followed by one day of eating vegan, and then the FAA diet. it is very strict, but it is what I need. I hope to be able to do it for 3 months/90 days, but right now all I feel I can realistically commit to is one month. I still do not have the confidence that I can do it. I am going to need all the help I can get. My sister has volunteered to be my sponsor. She is about 4 weeks ahead of me in her faa program, and is doing really well! Raj is cooking and grocery shopping for me, and my friend Julyla is going to be my motivational friend. I'm sure I will have others who will help me, but for the time being these are my tools at hand. Tonight we spent the evening preparing some meals and prepping vegetables for the juice fast. I also sat down and made some motivational signs that I will place around the house. The mind can do funny things, and I want to stay as positive as I can during this process. I know the first week is going to be the hardest, and I've already apologize to Raj for how I am going to act. I'm sure I am going to take my frustration out on him, and he is fully aware of this. I am going into this kicking and screaming...but fully knowing that I must do this. My main goal in life is to be able to spend as much time with my family as I can...and I can't do that if i am dead...which is where I will end up if I do not start taking care of myself. I hope to change my tastes, eat healthy, loose weight, reduce my bmi, reduce my waste circumference, be an example to my son. Here we go!