Changes...a new use for my old pan....

In order to make these life changes, there are things I have to change in my life...things I do daily. I have decided to make my macaroni and cheese pan into my oatmeal pan. This is a huge change for me!

Day 4 vegan day!

So when I got up this morning, I was so hungry, I felt weak and wanted to pass out. I went on two walks yesterday and did not finish my dinner....I grabbed a banana first thing this morning...boy did it taste good. After I got ready, I started making my oatmeal. It was the first time I've ever made it, and surprisingly tasted good. I added some fresh blue berries to it and ate it pretty fast. Lunch was a vegan burger with saute'd onions and peppers, lettuce, tomatoes and bbq sauce. I had it with some coleslaw. Dinner was a big salad, salsa, and a bean and rice burrito. All in all it was a good day. It felt nice to eat food today. I was getting pretty tired of juice. I have still been hungry, because I've been trying to control my portions, but its all been manageable.

Oh, I lost 2.2 lbs yesterday, for a total of almost 8.5 lbs in 3 days! A nice jump start to my goal. I hope it keeps coming off!

Day 3 fast

I'm am on my last day for the juicing. Yesterday I had a great day. I am not craving candy, but am wanting some bread. I am hoping that goes away today. I lost 3.4 lbs yesterday! That's more than I thought I could lose in a day. I'm happy with the weight loss, and hope it stays off when I go to eating food tomorrow. I didn't feel hungry yesterday and didn't have the side affects I originally had the previous day. Today I didn't have my first drink until 10:30. I was pretty hungry when I finally got to making my juice. One thing I've noticed is when I put the babies down for their nap, I automatically think oh, no its time for my lunch...and I want to go to eat food. And then I think oh no, I can't have macaroni...cause that's what my mind goes to first, and I go make a juice. Apparently that was my time to sit and enjoy some food...and it was a time when I would make bad choices. I'm hoping to make good choices during that time. Another time I am vulnerable is when I drive. I think to myself, oh let me just go stop into taco bell and get a snack....bad! So I've placed a sign in my car that states, what you eat in private eventually ends up what you wear in public. Just a reminder that the choices I make while I am alone, show up in how I look. I have also placed encouraging quotes/phrases around the house to remind me to stick with it.

Day 2 juice fast

I made it past day 1....day one is always the hardest. I was pretty tired/light headed/and hungry when I went to bed last night. I was hoping I would just be able to go to sleep with out any issues...it only took me about 10 minutes to fall asleep. I put a couple extra blankets on to keep me warm, and that did the trick. When I woke up, I needed a little motivation, so I got on the scale...even though I knew I shouldn't. To my surprise I weighed 2.8 lbs less than yesterday. I am changing the way I eat to be healthier and being healthier right now means loosing about 100lbs, so I was happy with the weight loss. It was just the motivation I needed!

Today I have tried to do normal things...yesterday I didn't do much...just tired to get through the day! I've had the kids today, which I was nervous about just because I started the day with no energy, but its been good to have our normal routine.

Juicing day 1 breakfast

Here is what I had for breakfast today. 1 apple, 3 small carrots, 2 celery stalks, 5 beet greens, handful of spinach, 4 strawberries.

This week's plan!

Making a life change!

I am embarking on a new journey. I have decided to get healthy...and I really mean it! I've been doing a lot of thinking the past month. It all started when my sister started going to Food Addicts Annonymous classes. She got me thinking, no admitting to myself that yes, I do have a problem. I use food to make me feel better, I use it to help me deal with every day issues, I use food as a crutch...I use food as a drug, I am addicted to food. I have known this for a long time, but coming out and admitting it to someone other than yourself is quite a step. Last week, I shared this with Raj, and we started coming up with a plan to get on track. The next day, I shared it with my Sister, who encouraged me to start FAA. After some thought, and planning/preparing, I am now ready to embark on this new journey. It will be a journey that will last a life time. I need to learn how to use food as it is intended for, for nutrition. I have decided to give up candy/pop/processed food/wheat/sugar/flour for a month. To start this process, I will be starting a 3 day juice fast tomorrow, followed by one day of eating vegan, and then the FAA diet. it is very strict, but it is what I need. I hope to be able to do it for 3 months/90 days, but right now all I feel I can realistically commit to is one month. I still do not have the confidence that I can do it. I am going to need all the help I can get. My sister has volunteered to be my sponsor. She is about 4 weeks ahead of me in her faa program, and is doing really well! Raj is cooking and grocery shopping for me, and my friend Julyla is going to be my motivational friend. I'm sure I will have others who will help me, but for the time being these are my tools at hand. Tonight we spent the evening preparing some meals and prepping vegetables for the juice fast. I also sat down and made some motivational signs that I will place around the house. The mind can do funny things, and I want to stay as positive as I can during this process. I know the first week is going to be the hardest, and I've already apologize to Raj for how I am going to act. I'm sure I am going to take my frustration out on him, and he is fully aware of this. I am going into this kicking and screaming...but fully knowing that I must do this. My main goal in life is to be able to spend as much time with my family as I can...and I can't do that if i am dead...which is where I will end up if I do not start taking care of myself. I hope to change my tastes, eat healthy, loose weight, reduce my bmi, reduce my waste circumference, be an example to my son. Here we go!